Oh fuckoff fuck off fuck off fuck off FUCK OFF!!!

My penultimate day in work but had to go up for my leaving presentation with 5 others who were leaving today. Now bearing in mind Ive just pranged my car this morning on a rather large lorry, had to bez up to a leaving meal where I was 30 mins late- had to meet boyfriend & his brother to give him some house keys... and Im on my period... well I just couldnt cope with it.

First time in my life I couldt speak- couldnt get any words through my strangled throat- eyes all red & blurry. I didnt want to do that effing thing today. It felt like I was made to celebrate my birthday a day early, when Im having the shittest day of my life (well week) and I just want to cry. Which I did. And Emma wasnt there- so Im mad at her- and ive got this massive bunch of flowers and a card and I just feel so.. so ... unfuckinggrateful cos all I want to do is scream 'ive got no fucking time!!!! Fuck that stupid car arrrrrrrgghhh im really really tired!!!!!! Im scared of leaving a job thats doing my nut in!!!!!'
etc.

And I still have to come in tomorrow and feel barmy all over again. So I just said 'sorry I cant say anything' and boo-ed me head off.